Before I Sleep(Mazzy Star Inspiration)

The shades that hide the truth. They are merely images that obscure reality. Reality is a calamity. It holds no real value unless you make something out of it. So here I lay. With my head upon the ground, staring at this blank world, staring back at me. And I ponder about these so-called "truths". And reasons for my pondering, is that lately I've been up all night. All night thinking of how the world will eventually lead into its own demise. And one day mankind will soon perish underneath a dying light. My eyes get weary and dreamy from staying up all night. It's not like the truth haunts my forever eternity soul or disturbs my ongoing nightmare. It's just what is the purpose of my life is what eventually leads me into a state of numbness. It's not any sorrow or depression that most people would associate my "ill-mind" to. I think it's further above something as simple as that. The complexity of the truth is obscured by human lives. That is why reality is a calamity. Because the lies we tell affect the future in every possible way. We create a butterfly effect within our own world that is a butterfly effect to other worlds. Honestly it's something out of human reach. If religion exists then everything we have been told in the history books are more complex than we think of. If reality is so hard to grasp than it is so simple to let go. But it can be vice-versa and it can intertwine within itself. Life's complex and reality is too. But through all the distortions and colors it sure can be simple as a Polaroid picture.