Speedballin

Apathetic said the little boy, "why are you disinterested in the pleasures of life?"
The young man responded, "I have seen it all & I have been let down. There is nothing that amuses me anymore therefore I am stuck feeling this way." His voice grows colder by the second realizing how they pierce & subdue deep inside. As he burns the sun & prepares his journey, his eyes are void of life. "See this? This is what true happiness looks like. You never really catch the dragon, you keep on chasing it for eternity. But maybe, the thrill of it all, is what keeps us going. Never will I ever fulfill our so called destiny or fate, nor do I have any satisfaction in partaking such frivolous desires. But this long winding race I have started, that rush, is the biggest orgasm to date." The little boy looks confused, afraid of what he does not know. "Galaxies formed in order for them to eventually die & form new matter in outer space thus destroying & recreating life. We are made up of matter but our souls are made of something else. Something that I don't know what it is. Our ego & pride yet that doesn't make the soul whole. So what is it?" The young man preps the sun's sap into the empty vile, glancing at the walls that he's trapped himself in. "Ages ago I once felt intertwined with an apparition of pure beauty. Cynical talks about our natural desire & greed, whether it was good or bad. We truly didn't understand each other. Yet, we felt closer than ever. You would think opposites don't attract but they do. She was on a narrow path straight to oblivion, she knew it. Instead of wanting bliss she chose the inevitable. Acceptance, that's apart of the soul. There comes a time where stubbornness out does itself & you eventually have to come face to face with reality. She tried instilling that in me. Now that she's gone, I am slowly but surely understanding that." Constricting the flow of life with his leather bond, he wipes away the guilt he's had for perpetuity. Smacks them away as he tries to look for the sea. Looking for the freshest bluest sea that there is. "When you grow up kid, you will see what I see. Maybe it won't be so apparent at first, maybe you won't quite know how to react or understand when you encounter little situations that make you doubt your own sanity. But when it hits you, it will feel like a freight train has collided into a train station. Feeling the impact as massive as an asteroid colliding into earth. You will soon see & understand behind beautiful lifeless eyes. Magnetic irises that swim in hazel, green, blue aurora's. Constricted & dilated pupils that stare into oblivion, uninhibited of their surroundings. Deeply flawed gorgeous spirits that wander around limbo." Penetrating his submarine into the the sea, he releases the warm nuclear energy into the sea. "Let your expedition commence." His eyes constrict & everything around him zaps away. Greeted by the sun & sheltered by the moon, he is home at last.