Glutton for punishment

i will never forget the smile upon your face
when you looked into my eyes,
the way you gazed upon the stars
then you told me that you loved me, it felt as if the world had stopped spinning.
when you told me the dark secrets hidden in the back of your mind, the way you cried , all the tears falling to the ground. somehow wishing i can pick you up and tell you that everything was okay.
You let out this big sigh, wiped your tears away and then looked away.
"I no longer love you"
They were the last words you said.
Your eyes, the way you put your hand on my hand, that last sigh did all the talking.
When you left, the world started spinning again.
Like a merry go round, going around and around.
My heart has stopped and these thoughts are racing again
I long for you
I miss you
Stop this world again some day, please.